my thesis is due in two weeks and I can't stop writing unrelated shit
It appears my thesis is due on friday, april 17th. Worrying about citations, literature reviews, defending, and to top it off I haven't even finished gathering my data! Dealing with returning grad school admissions, exams, and work piling on has been terrible for my mental health, and it's only gotten worse since spring break ended in mid april.
I'm procrastinating critical work by panic-writing. Not my thesis, but poetry and technical pieces, genuinely for no other reason than to express myself, and perhaps lament my final weeks of college. This isn't without precedence either; looking at the history of my poetry blog, the poems are tightly clustered during times of distress. The cluster around early july was actually just publishing old poems I've saved up, and I was doing well then.
I guess it's high-effort shitposting, but shitposting is still shitposting when I have work to do. Instead of gathering thesis data or writing, i've procrastinated so hard I made a third blog and polished up the other two. I know I used to draw when I was stressed out or depressed when I was younger but my drawing skills are atrocious now and I stopped drawing things. I hate the sound of my own voice, so I don't sing or record video/audio. I also can't draw (already mentioned) which leaves writing, where I can carefully sculpt a post to perfection.
oh well. time to get back to work.