Heat waves
it gets hot some times
but what does hot mean
in the context of weather
or in the context of physical chemistry
or in the context of my untility bill
the AC struggles to keep up
in the sweltering summer heat
and the miasmic swamp air seeps in
so then I lay in bed, unable to sleep
until late in the wee hours of the morning,
where the house cools to accommodate
my yankee roots
because i've acclimated to the southern heat
but having grown up in the northern cold
i find that
i cannot sleep in the heat
but that is a lie of course
i can sleep in the heat, i
frequently camped out in summers hotter and
wetter than the summers here
but perhaps i have aged
and with age comes pain
and pain comes discomfort
and the conditions i could tolerate
then, are intolerable now
and i feel after so many years
that i am finally no longer a
child, and with that comes all
of the adult worries
like bills to pay
i'm not even that old
i'm old enough to drink
but the youthful allure of ethanolic
stupor evaporates under the heat
of taxation and responsibility
i'm fine with the heat
but I cannot sleep in the heat
any longer as i will simply
shuffle restlessly
into the night
and so i lie awake
as always
and i wonder why
i did not cherish my time
perhaps i really was miserable then
but no good thing is good
on its own
for a cool breeze is only appreciated
as a respite from sweltering heat
freedom doesn't feel good
until you know what opression feels like
so i will wake to a sweltering heat
because I have bills to pay, and i am
a cheap bastard
i intentionally shut off the AC
to force myself out of bed
but also to save money
because there are bills to pay
and work to do
and a long life left to live
before the entropy catches up to you.