apathy
i...
it's been so long, dear
i haven't seen you in forever
why do you visit me?
what did i do to deserve you?
she seeps into my mind
what a cruel mistress
the cares of the world
slowly dissolving
responsibilities, commitments, interests
sublimating away
into a void of hurt
why does it hurt so much
i must fight her. some days
i might land a good hit
but she always comes back
its been rough lately
she keeps me company
i miss her
i miss the ignorant
bliss
bliss.
what a concept.
slipping away
into a silent hell
nobody sees it.
i put on a happy face
tell a story of defiance
but i'm just
so.
so.
so.
so. fucking. tired.
i miss her silent embrace
any wails of ambition
gagged and bound
no more crying, its time for rest
melted
dissolved
sublimated
atomized
gone.